Monday, May 23, 2011

:: I'm Too Busy ::

I'm Too Busy
Everyday as I wake up at dawn
My mind start working the moment I yawn
There were many things to do, o dear!
That's why I hastily did my Subuh prayer
I didn't have the time to sit longer to praise the Lord
To me rushing out after prayer is nothing odd...

Since school, I had been busy every minute
Completing my tutorials and handing it in
My ECAs took up most of my time always
No time did I have to Allah to pray
Too many things to do and zhikr is rare For Allah,
I really had no time to spare...

When I grew up and started my career
Working all day to secure my future
When I reached home, I preferred to have fun
I chatted on the phone but I didn't read the Qur'an
I spent too much time surfing the Internet
Sad to say, my faith was falling flat...

The only time I have left is weekends
During which I prefer window shopping with friends
I couldn't spare time to go to the mosque
I'm too busy, that's the BIG EXCUSE...

I did my five prayers but did so quickly
After prayer, I didn't sit longer to reflect quietly
I didn't have time to help the needy ones
I was loaded with work as my precious time runs

No time at all to visit a sick Muslim friend
To orphans and elderly, I hardly lent a hand
I'm too busy to do community service
When there were gatherings, I helped the least

My life was already full of stress
So I didn't counsel a Muslim in distress
I didn't spend much time with my family
Because I thought, doing so is a waste of time...

No time to share with non-Muslim about Islam
Even though I know, inviting causes no harm
No time to do Sunnah prayers at all
All these contribute to my eeman's fall...

I'm busy here and busy there
I've no time at all, that's all I care
I went for religious lessons, just once in awhile
Coz I'm too busy making a pile...

I worked all day and I slept all night
Too tired for Tahajjud and it seemed not right
To me, earning a living was already tough so
I only did basic deeds but that's not enough...

No time at all, to admire God's creation
No time to praise Allah and seek His Compassion
Although I know how short is my life
For Islam, I really didn't strive...

Finally the day comes, when the Lord calls for me
And I stood before Him with my Life's History
I feel so guilty because I should have prayed more
Isn't that what a Muslim lives for?

To thank Allah and do more good deeds
And the Qur'an is for us all to read...

Now at Judgement Day, I'm starting to fret
I've wasted my life but it's too late to regret
My entry to Paradise depend on my good behaviour
But I've not done enough nor did proper prayer

My "good deed book" is given from my right
An angel opened my "book" and read out my plight.

Then the angel chided me....

"O You Muslim servant, you are the one,
Who is given enough time, yet not much is done
Do you know that your faith is loose?
Saying "no time" is only an excuse.
Your "good deed book" should be filled up more
With all the good work you stood up for...

Hence, I only recorded those little good deeds
As I say this, I know your eyes will mist...
I was about to write some more, you see
But I did not have, THE TIME to list

THE END

(jumpa dalam koleksi tazkirah dari seorang sahabat)

:: Catatan Hati : Di Rumah Itu.. ::

Peperangan, itu yang berlaku,

Antara rumah sewa mahupun hostel,

Hati tidak kuat utk kedua-dua keputusan,

Segalanya masih berbelah bagi,

Tapi keputusan yang terzahir

Adalah memilih rumah itu….

Di rumah itu,

Penat lelah mengajarku erti hidup

Memanjat tangga sampai ke tingkat 5

Memerlukan kekuatan yang luar biasa rasanya

Baik kekuatan jiwa mahupun spiritual

Kerana

Tangga itu mengajarku erti

Menghela nafas dengan mengingati Allah

Menapak dengan zikrullah…

Di rumah itu,

Ku di ajar bangun seawal jam 6 pagi

Segalanya secara konsisten

Kembali kehidupan asrama dahulu

Bercerita bukan untuk mengeluh

Tapi mengajar menghargai jerih bonda

Yang kian hari ikhlas membesarkanku.

Di rumah itu,

Segalanya sendiri antara aku, dia dan dia,

Kerana di rumah itu aku belajar menghargai

Masa sebagai seorang suri.

Di rumah itu,

Pagiku terhias dengan menyiap sarapan

Untuk di bawa bekal ke tempat kerja

Merangkap menu tengah hariku

Yang saban hari di selang seli

Air mata barangkali

Mengenang bonda yang berpuluh tahun

Menjalani rutin itu sehari-hari

Di rumah itu,

Ku belajar mengurus masa sebagai seorang suri

Biarpun segalanya masih untuk diri sendiri

Tapi betapa ku mengerti

Tugas seorang suri bukanlah mudah

Umpama menekan remote tv

Di rumah itu,

Buat ku pening kepala bukan tanda migraine kunjung diri

Tapi pening memikirkan menu

Yang bakal di santap di kala malam hari

Biar jadual memasak siap tertampal

Sungguh,

Ia tak semudah membaca nama

Dan ‘take note’ memasak hari apa…

Apa tugas seorang suri sejati ada harinya??

Tak pernah terdengar cuti bagi seorang suri

Tertanya pada diri,

Apa layak memikul tugas amanah Illahi itu??

Bonda, semakin hari

Semakin ku mengerti, tugasmu di dapur,

Bukan sekadar memegang periuk dan senduk,

Tapi adunan ikhlas, titipan doa, sampah rungutan,

Ku belajar semua itu kini…

Di rumah itu,

Ikhlas dalam memasak,

Ikhlas dalam mengemas rumah,

Ikhlas dalam menyapu sampah,

Perasaan apakah itu…

Argh….suasana itu sungguh terasa lain,

Lain ketika segalanya di lakukan di rumah sendiri,

Lain dimensinya bila dilakukan di rumah sewa ini,

Apa hati ini masih meragui

Ganjaran yang Kau sediakan untuk rasa ikhlas itu…

Ampunkan hamba ya Rahim…

By : wardatul shauqah

6.30 pm/21 mei 2011

504, blok cengal, jln 7/1,

43300 sri kembangan, Selangor.

Monday, May 16, 2011

:: Aku dan Alam ::

Balayar kapal di tengah lautan,
Lautan luas tiada bertepian,
Deru angin kian membahagiakan,
Buat insan yang dahagakan belaian.

Belaian lembut namanya kasih,
Maka disambut pasit memutih.

Ombak datang menyapu pergi,
Menyapu pergi di awal pagi,
Sudahlah datang tak beriringi,
Perginya kini meninggalkan benci.

Panah mentari busurnya angin,
Sasarnya bumi kian mendingin,
Telah terpadam api lilin,
Kasih tersisa apa mungkin??

Samudera luas untuk ditelusuri,
Lautan dalam untuk dijejaki,
Buka mata bersihkan hati,
Tanya alam, apa diri layak menjadi abdi??


by wardatul shauqah
3.13 petang
Bahagian Sokongan Teknikal
Agensi Nuklear Malaysia

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